A better Kat...
I feel like a better Kat when I am not in school. I got my grades back from winter and I got a 4.0.Good, yet I still didn't think it was good enough. I think I would have been ok if I would have done everything else in my life at a 4.0 average, then I would be pleased. There was a sacrifice that was made to the alter of the 4.0. My time, energy, and life. Only 4 more quarters then I can focus on just school. This whole work, school thing is sucking the life out of me. I cannot wait to be able to have school be my primary focus.
This last couple of days, I have realized that I am a better nanny not being in school. I have time to cut out Jake's projects stuff and clean. I feel more relaxed and not as if every second the kids are sucking the life out of me. This week, I remembered again why I love being a nanny so much.
I was sitting watching Jake at the play structure at Washington Square Mall. I love watching him as he is interacting with the greater world around him. Jake has a timidity about him in new situations. He stands back and watches everything that is going on around him, then he engages where he is most comfortable. His face was filled with timeless expression, I am sure he will carry for the rest of his life. His little faces that show his silly side, his seemingly blank stare that is only him studying, and the enormous grins that cause his eyes to close as he looks upward. He has this unbelievable compassionate kindness to him. Even as the little girls are taking advantage of him, he continues to be kind and even-tempered. I wish I could say the same when he is playing with me. Sometimes I imagine him in high school as the kid that everyone wants to be around, if he is anything like his parents with their magnetic personalities, this kid has ASB president written all over him. His cautious, observant nature, I hope will keep him out of trouble. He is the most amazing kid.
Ok now that I have gushed I need to get back to my other writing...
posted by Kat @ 9:54 PM
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