Tuesday, November 16, 2004

I have been slacking off for the last week. I have been studying, sleeping, and watching T.V. I am not really sure why...I think because I have been obsessing alot lately. When I obsess I need to veg and do nothing.

This weekend I had aspirations of hard core studying, yet I did not. I watched three movies, read, and watch the AMA's. Mom you were right about that Gretchen Wilson song...yucky.

Despite my apathetic nature I have been getting alot accomplished inwardly. I have been processing through alot and feel like I am coming to some conclusions.

I found that I need to be more intentional with the people I spend time with..although a hard choice it was a good choice. I feel as if it will be the best decision that I have made in a long time.

On the other hand, in another relationship I realized it was worth the fight. True, I want to hurt this person more than I have ever wanted to hurt someone, but I now know that the only way out is through. God Bless Alanis Morsette and her music...it is the only thing that kept me sane these last couple of weeks. I am refering to her newest CD, the soulful one, not the evil bitchy ones of her past.

I was talking with Kevin and Becca last night and it was really hard. Good, but really hard. I know that I have spent the last year running away from my gifts, but it was nice to know that I have friends who love me whether I am running or staying. Eventually I will see that I need to stop, look back, and reassess.

Just an update...remember the mid-term I forgot about that I thought I bombed? I got a B.

Hmm..what else? Evangel and I skipped church on sunday and had yummy morrocan oatmeal at Old Wive's Tale. It was so fun...

I am back on dairy! I am sure it will not be for long, but I can eat more than three dairy product in a day! Sunday I had a glass of non-fat milk, milk in my oatmeal, cheese on my sandwich, and ice cream. I am so excited that I am able to eat dairy.

I will hopefully have something more interesting than my dairy intake later this week.