It is almost Saturday morning...
I am sitting here preparing for bed and I cannot sleep. It may have something to do with the coffee I had late this evening. I should be doing something productive, like my taxes or my financial aid...but I am not.I spend a few hours at the Jeanseau abode this evening hanging out with the girls. It was so much fun! I just love the girls to death and cannot wait for Molly to get here. It is so exciting this new little being coming to the world. I am starting to get impatient along with the rest of the family.
Tonight I was a bit emotional as I left thinking of the birth, the "life coming into the world" nuance thinking, paralleling me having my period again. It is funny how your period for so many years is annoying. Now it is sad. There is a part of me at least once during my week that I think about the fact that this is another potential life being pushed out of my body, as nature intends for this time. It is sad the older I get, the more eggs I see wasted every month. Every month I am reminded that I don't even have the potential to TRY to get pregnant, and even if I were to have that potential, it is a possibility that I cannot bear children. Things I do not need to think about right now...same thing I have been saying for the last almost five years, now.
I still find my period annoying, just for different reasons that before.
I know, I know...probably more than you wanted to know:)
posted by Kat @ 11:57 PM
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