Singleton Thought
So TODAY I am thinking I like the idea of being single for a LONG time.***********************A LONG TIME!********************
Today I like the idea of planting a church as a single woman. Actually today I love the idea.
The reality is...I don't have time to be in a dating relationship. Where I am right now just feels so right. I don't have the time to be doing all of the girly girl stuff. I want my focus to be on what God has put in front of me right now...and from what I can see...that is not a boy.
I am more passionate about Jesus, getting an education, and pioneering ahead for people to walk freely in their relationship with God, to nurture people, to spend time with the poor, to do all of the things that God has put on my heart. However, at some point that might be marriage and a family.
Someone said to me yesterday that God would be more honored with me having a child, than any church plant I could ever do. To raise and love a child, is more important.
I disagree. I think that God is more honored that I am listening to His voice beckoning me wherever He may. That I listen for him delicately whispering in my ear:
"Hey sweetie, can you go here for a bit? I really want you to hold these people, love them, and nurture them the way that I nurture you. Let them see my love be expressed through all of the gifts that I have knit into you."
Obeying His voice, whatever that may be, I think that is the highest calling we could ever honor God with.
So that is what makes me want to be single for a long time. I am really loving this time of hearing the voice of my Infinite Lover. I feel content in the arms of my Beloved, I feel at rest, at peace. I want not.
Martin Buber talks about the I and the Thou relationship with God, and I believe that once you experience the Eternal Thou, there is no substitute.
posted by Kat @ 11:06 PM
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