Centering Night
Curtis left this afternoon and I felt completely exhausted. This weekend was so busy that I didn't have time to collect my thoughts. Monday, Curt and I hung out all day until I went to class. After class we went to look at cars then got Super Size Me from Blockbuster and ice cream(it was light).Today he slept in while I got ready and started my newest project. I decided that I am going to make art to put on the walls of the new house. Good times. The picture below is apart of a quasi-collage that will go in my room. I am going to do three different installments all centering around vision/passions God has given me. They are going to be the same colors as my bed pillows. I know I have issues with things needing to match.
Tonight I rented the Ice Cube movie, "Are we there yet?" Yes I know. It is random. But I loved the Friday movies, so I had to watch it. I light the candles at the alter and had some God-time. I have needed to talk aside time for journaling and processing all weekend and have just been too busy. I realized that I have been a little irritated with God, or maybe irritated with the fact that things seem a little crazy. I JUST became super content with being single. I was for the first time in my life, excited at the idea of planting a church single. Then this boy comes along. Who fits almost everything on my list of wants in a guy and I get confused. I want to stick hold of my place of contentedness(is that a word?), but feel really conflicted.
Then Curtis, my friend who is great, comes into town and I feel like it would be neat to have a friend on this journey. It would be great to have someone who cared for me, who loved me. Who encouraged me spiritually. Might not be so bad.
So all of these thoughts flow out, all of these opinions and I am left feeling exhausted, confused and tired. Yet I know that God will work everything out according to his pleasing and perfect will. I believe that with everything in me.
It centers me.
posted by Kat @ 10:48 PM
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