Nick Drake and Vanilla Yogurt w/Fresh Berries
I am sitting here in my living room enjoying the moment for what it is. I just downloaded Nick Drakes Pink Moon(fab!!) and am having a little yummy dessert. We have been making the transition to mainly organic food for the last 6 months and I scored an awesome deal on yummy berries at the Farmers Market this weekend! Organic tastes SO much better than chemical filled foods.
Carter finally found a job last week and it is in Northeast! I am super excited that we will begin the process of moving to Northeast. Today was going to be his last Sunday being able to go to church until we found out Mosaic is switching to three services in the fall!!!!! It will be weird going to an evening church again...I LOVE morning church. Good timing that they are moving to evening services! Now the only thing they need is podcasts and I will be SO happy.
We have been having a rough time of it over the last couple of weeks. It feels as if we are alway working on something. I suppose that is a good thing considering we are newly married it just gets exhausting at times. I have become increasingly distant toward pretty much everyone around be(isolating) because I feel just drain emotionally at times. I don't feel as if I have anything to give. I do know however I need to get ready to start school in a couple of months. This is the year I need to push myself. I am going to do as much as I can for the next year so that I can catch up from the extended break I have taken this year. I am still a little frustrated with myself that I took two quarters off. I do know that I needed the break.
So come September I will be going to school and working full time again. We are also planning on moving into Northeast sometime in the late fall. We really want to be closer to the church and to the community we want to be more involved with. I have been mulling over what it is going to look like with me so busy again and I am not really sure how it is all going to work. Hopefully it will be smoother than I imagine.
Mark Driscoll makes my tummy sick
I haven't been really angry about church stuff in awhile. I have kind of been off in another world lately and my frustration toward the prideful "I am so much cooler than you" attitudes from supposedly important christian leaders has been suppressed. I had to look away from any articles or blogs which said anything negative about the emergent church, women in leadership, and homosexuals. I also had to avoid the articles which encouraged people to "build a postmodern church" by owning an ipod, dressing like a metro-sexual, and getting cross tattoos to be "relevant" to the people you minister to. It is all such a waste of time to me.
So tonight while searching for podcasts I somehow got over to Marc Driscoll's blog. I don't know why I didn't flee from evil but I continued on to read. The article that I read was a slam on Episcopalians. The main point was that he was mocking a priest who left his wife to live and alternative lifestyle and was a closet alcoholic. He also made fun of a woman who was being appointed a higher position in the church. OK..now I want to cry. It was so unloving. It is so not nice to dig on others believes because we don't agree with them. He is a leader and should be an example for the people he pastors. Jesus was all about the light, love and acceptance. I don't believe that Jesus was this regimented God who said, "Come to me when you are all living my law perfectly." I also don't think He said that people should be looked down upon because they have different understandings of the scripture. I mean come on. Of course we are going to have different interpretations...we are all so unique and created that way. I think that we are totally missing the point if anyone claims to have all of the answers, claims to be able to direct us into right beliefs, or correct theology. I don't think that was the goal.
Perhaps that was God's plan. Not that we were able to learn all of the rules to live by and obediently follow, but maybe that we wrestle with his word, wrestle with the things that were laid out in scripture, wrestle with the mystery. I don't believe that we can say we know exactly how to live, that would defeat the purpose of being in relationship with God. If we knew all of the answers we wouldn't need any help. I guess I want to be dependent on God. I know that I don't want to rely upon man's own finite thoughts to steer my relational course with Jesus. Marc Driscoll from everything I have read and the couple of times I attended his church is in need of a serious awakening. His words just drip sarcasm and malicious content. It is so not Jesus-y.
Not to mention EVERY TIME I read his writing he mentions something about his success. The important people he is friends with, the large numbers of congregants that flock at his feet each week, and his podcast being #1 in the christian spirtuality section of itunes. He praised God for this. He felt it was good that more people were hearing the word of God which I agree with.
Just as long as it truly is and not just conservatively biased opinions from Marc Driscoll.
