Just a girl who would rather love, than Jew or be Jewed
In Sociology class on Monday, I listened, shared with people that I felt like I was supposed to. Except one thing…I did it the way I was supposed to do it. The way KAT is supposed to walk this out. Yes, it is a gift, but I am not all “crazy spiritual girl”, I am just a simple girl, who loves God. I used my language (didn’t mention Jesus), and you know what….people saw love. People saw Jesus. He has given me the ability to love people, be kind, and be me. I, for so long have felt like I needed to be like every other goody Christian, be something that I am not and it has finally sunk in, I don’t.I get to be Kat. In all fullness, I get to say what I want, do what I want, and be who I want to be. Jesus Christ, the Son of the Living God, lives inside of me and says that I am great and that should be enough. I want to live my life unapologetically. I do not want to apologize anymore for the person that I am becoming, because it is like saying that God’s creation is not good enough. I am loud, I am sassy, stubborn, somewhat crass at times, but I really love Jesus. That should be all that matters…
There are people that have chosen to not be near me perhaps because I am “not safe”, or I am too much like the world, or because I am not a fundamentalist…who think I have gone off the deep end. To that I can say, I hear the still small voice of my Jesus say, “Well done. I am proud of you.” If God parted the seas, He can certainly show me when I am wrong, or have gone overboard. I would much rather love and find common ground with people than tear down walls when we are supposed to be bound in love.
I want Jesus to continue to show me how to love the unlovely. For me it is NOT hard to love a homeless man, a homosexual, or unbelievers. It is hard for me to love people who hurt, people who are legalistic Christians, and people who do mean things in His name. As much as I want to disassociate myself with those people, Jesus loves them the same. Below are the lyrics from one of my favorite Nicole Nordeman songs that I think captures what I am essentially trying to say.
Come, there is room enough for all of us
Please come, where the arms are open wide enough
Please come, where the parts are never greater than sum
This is the heart of the one who stands before an open door and bids us come
Come, from the depths of depravity
Come, from the best of humanity
Come now and see how we need every different being, on same stream
I guess at the same time I don't want to be Jewed(thanks Chelsy Leslie for the new word in my venacular), I don't want to be a part of the problem, I want to be a part of the solution...a part of the change.
-K
posted by Kat @ 10:47 PM
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