Whatever happens...happens
Being single is an amazing thing. I love taking time to be alone, to be quiet, having time, space, a place where I could not imagine my life any different or any better than it was in those moments of being alone. It was peaceful, calm, and wonderful.And then I met Carter.
I feel as if I have a better grasp on what is going on with him now that some time has passed. I really cannot explain the fullness of what is happening but I know that I am deliriously happy. I still do not understand why he came into my life when he did but I know that I feel as if I have been given this gift in him that I want do my best to not screw it up. The thing that is so odd about it is that I do not have any explanation as to what is happening. I feel like I am on this gigantic rollercoaster ride that I never want to end. Actually maybe it is more like the tea cups at Disneyland...just spinning as your hair whips your face, feeling so free, so excited, giddy like a school girl.
I honestly never imagined that I could be this happy with another person. Never. I never imagined that I would want to be in relationship with someone else more than I want to be alone. It is so foreign to me, but it has the comfort of a new pair of jeans that actually fits perfectly. Everyone knows how hard it is to find the perfect pair of jeans. You know with that feels like you have worn them for a couple of years. No discomfort, just the right fit. You try on so many pairs of jeans in your lifetime, the idea that you actually found a pair that fits is so mind-boggling. That is how I feel about my new boyfriend Carter. He fits. There is no logic or reason to why he fits when he does, or if he will continue to fit, but like the jeans...he fits for right now.
Whether or not he is the durable pair of jeans that you own for a lifetime, or just a pair to enjoy for this season, I want to enjoy this gift as much as I can in this season, in this place, in this time.
And whatever happens....happens.
posted by Kat @ 2:30 PM
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