Family ties
This weekend I drove to the Puyallup area(Bonney Lake) to visit my dad and stepmom. It was fun to catch up on all the family info. We went to a BBQ Saturday and there were a tons of uncles and aunts, cousins, and nieces and nephews that I didn't know. It was weird to be there...knowing that they are not "really" my family. Most of you know that when I was 21, I found out that my dad is not my biological dad. It is weird to be with a family that for most of my childhood were weird and distant toward me. This lead me to a long thought process of what family really is. I have not come to any conclusions except this one: It is when you are home with people. It is true that you have blood lines that some feel run deep and are the most important relationships in your life. I have found that alot of my friendship provide that for me. But what about when your friends leave? When your friends hurt you? It often appears easier to leave these situations than it is to leave family ties.So I wonder...have I spent all of these years wasted on building relationships with people that in the end are just going to fail? In the end not provide the same level of intimacy as family? Should I spend this time investing in my family...most of who I do not enjoy being around?
I am saddened that I was so committed to several relationships over the years only to realize now that the reasons we were in relationship was merely because I filled a role or went to church with them. I don't think this is the way that relationships are supposed to be. I think that when you give your heart to someone that means something...and it shouldn't be taken lightly. I think we have a great power in our relationships and with great power comes great responsibility.
posted by Kat @ 2:26 PM
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