Thursday, June 30, 2005

Crazy people suck

Anger is a blinding thing. You must control your anger young Anakin. Oh wait...umm...I must control my anger.

I had a crazy person in my life and after I decided I did not want the person in my life she still tries to pop in...this time in a little action called, "Triangulation." It is a very unhealthy communication pattern that is learned in dysfunctional families. I know it well as I served under the title of "Triangle Mistress" at different points in my life. Triangulation is when someone is not able to communicate directly to another so they use a third party to do so...and it is so lame.

I was spewing profanities on the phone to my friend Erin tonight and sent out a really angry email. This whole getting in touch with my pain and feelings is turning me a little more to the dark side. In addition to me moving to the suburbs I am almost ready to take the title,"Darth Kat" or "Kat Vader."

Reading about codependancy I see now that if one person in the relationship decides to work through the stuff and the other is content with being a psycho then a real relationship will never work. Not only one person can pursue wholeness while the other doesn't.