Pain Sucks
So I am on this whole facing pain kick right? Good to embrace pain? Yes...good to be in touch with things that hurt you.So Carter and I tried to go to Mergy Church tonight. We were there for five minutes and I lost it. Full on tears. Yeah it is still WAY too painful and think it is best for me to just stay away until I get things a bit more weeded out.
So I grasp that facing pain is good, but at times it might be best taken in small doses. So that you are not having to numb yourself later from the shock of it all like I did.
The key that I think I came to a greater understanding of was something that Ruth said to me about God is going to keep doing whatever work He is doing in me, whether I am at Mergy or I am somewhere else.
I am still dreaming of a day where I am able to face the darkness and step toward the future. To have the placidity of God's shalom resting on me. To be in the place where I am no longer haunted of the past.
posted by Kat @ 12:20 AM
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