Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Update during Blog Hiatus

I have received a few worried emails from people over the last month. They are from people that are not anywhere near me but have cared to send the very best...concern and prayers.

The last posts I mentioned a very painful breakup which was reconcile a couple of days after the post. We are very happy and are continuing to work this thing called life out together.

The last month I have been sorting through the mess that my heart has become. I have been wounded so deeply but I guess that is what happens when you have relationships that do not have a solid foundation built beneath them. I have taken the road less traveled and I find this to be a lonely yet soul-nurturing path. My heart is also a bit messy from this lovey-dovey stuff. I am finding that being in an intimate relationship with another is one of the hardest most gut-wrenching things you can do but it produces great joy at times. It is so hard...but I would not rather be in any other place.

My new place out here in the suburbs is fantastic. I love my roomate...we are a good fit for each other. She taught me how to knit so I have been obsessively knitting for the last month or so. I love it. I am in full-scarf assembly mode. Next I am going to start to sew some purses. I am feeling very Martha-y and am loving every moment of it!

My 27th birthday came and went. It was a simple lovely evening. My good friend Julie came over with her beautiful daughters Hannah, Abi, and Ella to swim. Her gift was the best birthday gift I have ever received. She took me to Imelda's on Hawthorne and let me pick out whatever shoes I wanted. I left with a sassy pair of green shoes by this female Brazilian designer and a pair of black practical shoes that I love. Carter bought me shoes. Biz bought me the Stitch and Bitch knitting book. It was a lovely birthday. Carter came over to take me to Papa Haydn's but I was too tired...it was the thought that counts:)

A couple weeks later Carter and I went to Yakima for my brothers going away party. He is leaving for grad school in Pittsburg. We had a fun family gathering, we went to see Jack Johnson at the Gorge, house-hunting on Sunday while my 15 year old cousin drove us around. We were looking at the low housing costs if we decide to move there after we get engaged and married. I am having a difficult time thinking of having babies and not having my family around. We had a good chat with my parents about us talking about getting married and we received good counsel. Of course, everything is up in the air...just looking at the possibility. I still hate Yakima, but it is not as bad when he is with me. Everything seems better when were together. I have a couple of eyes on some schools in Seattle as well...we will see.

The weekend before last while watching the Godfather 2(he is quite adament about me watching the movies) I started to have these lower abdominal spasms. They were painful and it felt as if I were birthing. Not that I would know...but it was happening every 10 minutes or so. After an hour of this we decided to go to the emergency room(it was that bad). We left here to drive to the Kaiser in NoPo and arrived at 10:30 and waiting for several hours. We were falling asleep in the lobby(he was snoring) and after several different tests they sent me home with the idea that I might have gall stones. The next day I went in for an ultrasound and a couple of days of thinking I was going to have cancer and die they found nothing. No explaination for the pain. I am planning on going to my doctor and doing some follow up work to figure out why I was in so much pain and if there is possibly something else wrong with me. Hopefully all will be fine.

This past weekend we went to Salem to visit with Carter's family. I was extremely tired and kept dozing off on the couch while watching Hurricane Katrina. I love his grandma. I was in the kitchen helping her make potato salad and we had a nice time. She is so sweet. This coming weekend we are going back for a family picnic which I am excited about.

So that is all for now...I will periodically post but for now I am still enjoying being with my thoughts. I have found knitting, thinking and praying to be quite therapeutic during this season.

Thanks again to my out of state friends!

posted by Kat @ 5:20 PM